Judas' death

We can't see when he hung himself but we've got the feeling that he did it when the rope fell down.
The mob that go with him push him to suicide.
The desperation of Judas doesn't get an answer from the priests. It´s touching to see Judas crawling and creeping on the floor.
He feels he has been spattered with innocent blood.
Then we listen in Judas'voice, the Mary's words: "I don´t know how to love him..."
He looks as confused as her.And he justifies himself saying that Jesus "is just a man."
But if he justified himself why would he suicide?

Juan Casero